The summer of rollercoasters!

 Bravery comes in all shapes and sizes, and places you don’t expect. His sugar feels out of control. High numbers, low numbers the sums of his feelings all wrapped up in these stupid numbers that control our life. We are excited with a good number and disappointed with a high one. As much as we know it isn’t a grade it feels like one. Mostly a grade on how I’m doing a poor job as my sons caregiver. I know that this isn’t the case but those are the thoughts I get when I’m tired. Sometimes I say to him, because children pick up on everything, that I’m not frustrated with him just diabetes. Which he understands. I’m only dealing with this one day at a time. I will not let FEAR control our lives. 

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